If I die today, what would happen to the rest of the world? Would it feel the loss of my presence? Would it weep for me? Would it close its eyes and imagine my presence and what meaning it brought?
The world I refer here is the planet itself. And I want to see whether I am connected with the world or not. It is contradictory. Because I am an industrial human. As being part of that world, my perception of the natural world is blurry. I am not fully embodied, so I cannot make a sound judgement about my perception of nature. So, in a sense I question, if I die, would the whole body of the world feel it? Now, a part of world is dying everyday, and yet I am so desensitised that I do not feel those losses. (But somehow, I know, hence I am writing it here. My writing is the manifestation of my own awareness of desensitisation). But here is the catch: I am desensitive to the world because I have been "desensitised" to it by my own culture. What about the world ? Is it also desensitive to my existence? I could hardly think that the world could be desensitised to my existence. We humans are very arrogant in that respect, always think that we could achieve an effect on the existing-order-of-the-world through technology.
I would feel better to know that the world cares. It would mean that I take the world as an intelligent entity, although I do not necessarily attribute intelligent qualities to it that humans possess. But this also entails that I need be sensitive again. I would know that the more sensitive I become, the more I will feel the rhythms of the natural cycles, structures, and so on.
So let us be re-sensitised to the world again, so to be rid of our domestication. To return to wild is to regenerate our sensitivity.
